naman!

time for something a bit lighter...

a few weeks ago i discovered something,
something kinda embarrassing for a woman my age...
i'm not gonna tell
just in case someone happens to pass by and read this
but i wish something happens to what happened to me,
you know what i mean?
confused?
me too...

"Lord, bakit naman pabata ng pabata?!"
wala ba yung age ko? =)

when doubts arise

i've been living in another country for more than a month now, and, for lack of better things to say, its overwhelming. living by myself has never been my forte. i tend to stick to where ever it is that my family or closest friends are in. over a month ago i told myself that i can do this, that i have to toughen myself up for the long, bumpy road ahead. barely a few days into my second month and i feel like hurtling myself in front of a roaring MRT train just to take all the misery and doubt away.
...
...
...
i can do this...
i seem to be doing that a lot these days...
talking to myself...over and over again...
i can do this...
come hell or high water...i CAN do this...
i have to...
Lord, help me, i have to...

the day hope won...

YES WE CAN!
YES HE DID!
On nov 4, 2008, history was made. Barack Obama became the first African- American to be elected as President of the United States of America.
For the first time in my life, i wished i was an american, just so i can be a part of history.
Congratulations to him and all the Americans who wanted change and who believed it can be done! Bravo!!!

***on a sad note, Prop 8 was passed. and here i thought we were in the 21st century, you know? no biases, no prejudices... oh well, our friends will have their time...

80/20 Rule

so for the past few months i've been following updates on the web on this Taiwan based actor named Wu Chun (you should know him by now, i've posted his pics several times already) and recently he updated his blog in Fahrenciti by posting about the 80/20 Rule. he got it from this blog http://akssara.blogspot.com/. here is what it says:

80/20 Rule

Interesting quote from the movie "Why did I get Married?"

In most cases, especially in relationships, you
will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will
hardly get the other 20% of what you WANT in your
relationship. There is always another person (man or women)
that you will meet and that will offer
you the other 20% which is lacking in your
relationship that you WANT. And believe me, 20%
looks really good when you are not getting it at
all in your current relationship.

But the problem is that you will always be
tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you
have, thinking that you will get something better
with the other 20% that you WANT.

But as the reality has proven, in most cases, you
will always end up with having the 20% that you
WANT and loosing the 80% that you really need and
that you already had.

Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and
NEED in your life.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what
you don't have. "Wow, this girl in my office is a
real looker. But it's not her Winona Ryder
features that got me. I'm crazy about her because
she's also understanding, intelligent, tender -
so many things that my spouse is not."

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a
man who will be more charming or sensitive. More
alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater
appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will
need you and pursue you and go loco over you more
than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or hisband is perfect. Because a
spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking
for. So adultery takes place when a husband or
wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your
wife is melancholic by nature.

You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk
who has a cheery laugh no matter what she says:
"I broke my arm yesterday, hahaha..."

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers
and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you
may fall for a fresh smelling young sales
representative that visits your office in a sharp
black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil cut
skirt, or because your husband is the quiet
type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an
old college flame who has the makings of a talk
show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have !

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100%
that represents all the years that you have been
with each other. The storms you have weathered
together. The unforgettable moments of sadness
and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you
have made to love the other. The wealth of
memories that you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start lookign for what
you don't have.

But faithfulness happens when you start thanking
God for what you already have.
But I'm not just talking about marriage.

I'm talking about life!

About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.

Are you like the economy airline passenger that
perennially peeks through the door of the first
class cabin, obssessed with what he's missing?
"They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food
is served in porcelein! Wow, their seats recline
at an 80 degree angle and they've got personal videos!"

I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire
trip! Don't live your life like that. Forget
about what the world says is first class. Do you
know there are many first class passengers
who are miserable in first class --- because they
are not riding in a private Lear Jet?

The main message???

If you start appreciating what you have right
now, wherever you are, you are first class!
---

Quote:

Do not look back and ask why,
look forward and ask why not?

HOT! more fangirlishness!!!

thought i'd just share a few pics of Wu Chun, super HOT member of Taiwan based boy band Fahrenheit. as the title suggests, he's hot! enjoy!!!




all images: credit as tagged

Finished reading Twilight

I finished reading Twilight about 2-3 days ago, and i must admit, i LOVE it!!!! maybe not the same kind of love that i have for the HP series, but love all the same! there is something about this book, something that makes you not want to put it down and read it until the last page.

now i'm looking for ways to get the 2nd book, New Moon, although i must admit it will be kinda hard, what with me being jobless and having no money and all... but...i must read all the books!!!

we'll see what happens...i've read a few reviews saying 2 out of the 4 books are really good, and the other 2? well, not so much. but i'll reserve my own opinion AFTER i've read them all.

***
finished reading all 4 books. all i can say is, it's fine, nut it's no HP, if you know what i mean. its ok, engrossing even, i finished the last 3 books in less that a week! but i enjoyed reading twilight more that all the 4 books. so there...

twilight

lately i've been hearing about this book called Twilight by Stephenie Meyer and i have to admit i'm intrigued. intrigued, because my younger sister, who doesn't really like reading books unless i convince her its good, was practically asking me almost every week if i've read it already. my answer was always the same, "NO". not because i don't have the time, God only knows i have lots of it, but rather, i don't have the money to buy it or i don't know anybody (my friends, at least) who have it. so, after several weeks of wondering what its about, i finally summoned enough energy to google the book. here's a synopsis that i got from wikipedia:

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Isabella "Bella" Swan moves from sunny Phoenix, Arizona to rainy Forks, Washington to live with her father, Charlie. She chooses to do this so that her mother, Renée, can travel with her new husband, Phil Dwyer, who is a minor league baseball player. In Phoenix she was a bit of an outcast, so it surprises her that she attracts much attention at her new school and is quickly befriended by several students. Much to her dismay, several boys in the school, namely Mike Newton and Eric Yorkie, compete for shy Bella's attention.
When Bella sits next to Edward Cullen in class on her first day of school, Edward seems utterly repulsed by her. He even attempts to change his schedule to avoid her, leaving Bella completely puzzled about his attitude towards her. After tricking a family friend, Jacob Black of the Quileute tribe, into telling her the local tribal legends, Bella concludes that Edward and his family are vampires. Although she was inexplicably attracted to him even when she thought Edward drank human blood, she is much relieved to learn that the Cullens choose to abstain from drinking human blood, and drink animal blood instead. Over time, Edward and Bella fall in love. Their foremost problem is that to Edward, Bella's scent is a hundred times more potent than any other human's, making Edward struggle to resist his desire to kill her. However, despite this, Edward and Bella manage to stay together safely for a time.
The seemingly perfect state of their relationship is thrown into chaos when another vampire coven sweeps into Forks and James, a tracker vampire, decides that he wants to hunt Bella for sport. The Cullens plan to distract the tracker by splitting up Bella and Edward, and Bella is sent to hide in a hotel in Phoenix. Bella then gets a phone call from James in which he says that he has her mother, and Bella is forced to give herself up to James at her old dance studio, where he attacks her. Edward, along with the rest of the Cullen family, rescue Bella before James can kill her. Once they realize that James had bitten Bella's hand, Edward sucks the venom out of her system before it can spread and change her into a vampire. Upon returning to Forks, Bella and Edward attend their prom and Bella expresses her desire to become a vampire, which Edward refuses to let happen.
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***apparently there are 3 other books after this. the 2nd is new moon, 3rd is eclipse, & the last is breaking dawn. i read the synopsis for all 4 books, but somehow i just can't find the energy to save up for it. i just don't feel the same way i did, say, when i read the harry potter series. but who knows? maybe when i finally get a copy, i won't be able to put it down and even fall in love with it like countless others. well, i guess we'll just have to find out.
***
credits to wikipedia for the synopsis/picture

the numerology of names by amanda coggin

i found this interseting article on the Yahoo webpage about the numerology of your name and what it means. i tried it and here's the result.

my destiny number is: 1
apparently, i am "determined, autonomous and self reliant".
there is also a much more thorough explanation regarding my destiny number, and it says:

"A destiny number of 1 indicates that you are destined to a position of leadership. You can live up to this destiny by using your ability to think and act for yourself. By relying on your determination, independence and strength you will be able to make your own path in the world. You shouldn't be afraid to stray from the safe path and try new things or new methods of approaching problems. If you rely on your creativity and strength of character you can have success in new endeavors while leading others to follow you there. "

hmm...i don't really like being a leader, im more of a follower. i would like to be more determined, autonomous and self reliant, though. (hence the reason why im looking for a job abroad even without somebody i know to go with) the last two sentences kind of hit the spot though, so maybe it's about 50% right at the moment. we'll see if the other 50% falls into place in the future.

if you want to try this out, here's how you do it:

How Numerology Works:
When working with a name, numbers have corresponding letters. The numbers are added up and broken down into single digits in order to give you your final Destiny Number.

The Number Assignments
1= A, J, S
2= B, K, T
3= C, L, U
4= D, M, V
5= E, N, W
6= F, O, X
7= G, P, Y
8= H, Q, Z
9= I, R

How to Find Your Destiny Number:

1. Write down your full name (first, middle, and last). This is the name you were given at birth—not your married name, etc.
2. Using the table above, write down the number matched to each letter in each name (i.e. AMANDA = 1, 4, 1, 5, 4, 1).
3.Add the numbers together for each name (i.e. 1+4+1+5+4+1= 16).
4. You will most likely get a double digit for each name; break down each double digit number you get by adding the first and second digit to get one number (i.e. from the 16 above, add together 1+6 to get 7, which is the number for Amanda).
5. Add up the final numbers you get from each name (i.e. my middle name number is 8 and my last name number is 10, so 7+8+10 = 25).
6. Once again, break down any double-digit numbers into one digit to get your final Destiny Number (i.e. from the 25 above, add together 2+5 to get 7, which is my final Destiny Number).

In numerology, the basic vibrations are numbers 1 through 9, but the numbers 11 and 22 are master numbers and should not be reduced to a single digit since these are master vibrations.

There are plenty of books and Web sites that will give you a thorough analysis of your Destiny Number, but here’s a basic rundown on what your Destiny Number means for you:

1 is determined, autonomous, and self-reliant
2 is loyal, tactful, and analytical
3 is passionate, positive, and fun-loving
4 is sensible, traditional, and serious
5 is bold, temperamental, and sensual
6 is responsible, cautious, and domestic
7 is spiritual, unconventional, and somewhat reclusive
8 is money-oriented, assured, and authoritative
9 is versatile, compassionate, and worldly
11 is enlightened, deep, and high-strung
22 is ambitious, a global planner, and motivated


you can find more on the explanation for your number via this link:
http://www.aboutnumerology.com/destinymeanings.php

i can't make you love me

Turn down the lights,

turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies

Just hold me close, dont patronize

- dont patronize me

Chorus:

cause I cant make you love me

if you dont

You cant make your heart feel something it wont

Here in the dark,

in these lonely hours

I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power

But you wont, no you wont

cause I cant make you love me,

if you dont

Ill close my eyes,

then I wont see

The love you dont feel when youre holding me

Morning will come

and Ill do whats right

Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight

Chorus:

cause I cant make you love me

if you dont

You cant make your heart feel something it wont

Here in the dark,

in these lonely hours

I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power

But you wont,

no you wont cause

I cant make you love me,

if you dont

this song is aiza seguerra's version, but originally done by bonnie rait. i stumbled upon it via the asianfanatics news portal and followed the link to asian review 2.0. i'm not really surprised at aiza seguerra's voice, i mean, i've been listening to her since she came up with her 1st album years ago. it's just so incredibly soothing, like listening to water gently flowing down a brook. (did i really just go poetic there?) but this song, man, i could just visualize how people (girls) with broken hearts are listening to it while looking out the window into the night sky while it's raining. it makes you want to, well, for lack of better terms to use, it makes you want to emote. it makes you want to remember the feelings and memories that you try so hard to suppress deep inside.

so, go ahead and emote. don't worry, nobody's looking.

Listen to Aiza Seguerra's song here: http://asianreview2.blogspot.com/

wendy valdez on The Buzz (092108)

wondering why the font color is freakin' bloody red? (doesn't really go with the page, i know!) read on and find out, coz' i'm about to rant some more...

did anybody else (aside from me that is) had the misfortune to watch wendy valdez on the buzz last sunday? she was being interviewed by boy abunda regarding the rumor that she had the temerity to answer back AND walk out on edu manzano on a taping for GKNB.

that really wasn't the reason why i'm ranting. she could be interviewed every day of the freakin' week and i wouldn't care less about it. but the minute she started sniffling, like she's going to cry any minute now but just barely holding it back? that's what got to me. i was actually waiting for her to cry! but guess what? NO TEARS! just sniffles! girl, i'm telling you, if you wanted to have the entire country believe in you when you say you're just misunderstood, make sure that there are freakin' TEARS RUNNING DOWN YOUR FACE!!! i'm not exactly asking for gut wrenching sobs like you just lost your dog (like i did) or something, maybe a tear or two would have done it. but nothing! nada! not one damn tear out of the corner of her eye!

maybe she should just stick to reality shows like PBB, she was so good at being the queen of b!$*%ness there, or maybe take more acting lessons? like maybe for a month? no, wait, a year maybe? yeah, i think a year would do it...by then when you try to cry on TV, maybe even i would buy into the act!

ok...rant over. (breathes deeply, then exhale)

reproductive health bill

to all the stupid people (you know who you are and you know where you're from!) who have been trying to block the reproductive health bill from becoming a law, you have no idea what you're talking about! you don't know what it's like for all the children in this country who are starving because their parents don't have enough money to support them! you are not the one feeding them! you are not the one supporting them! you are not the one struggling to work hard to get enough money to pay the bills! in short, shut the heck up!
i've had enough of all the whining that the catholic church is doing regarding this matter. isn't there supposed to be a separation of the church and the state? if so, then why does it have to matter what they say when the bill is for the good of all women nationwide? why is it so hard for them to understand that we, as women, have the right to choose for ourselves? it's our body and we know what's right for it. and what will it take for them to know that we are not violating anything that God has told us to do? i mean, that's what free will is for, right? we know what's right and what's wrong. we are not stupid! oh, and church? stop waving your power around to all the people who support this bill by telling them that you will not support them in the coming elections and that you won't let them attend mass. shame on you!
i could go on and on about this topic, but we'll see how this issue pans out...

the thing with friendship is...

So. I had a pretty rough weekend, to say the least. I just found out that a friend of mine, who I now consider my bff(!), is now considering moving and working somewhere else, as in far somewhere else. I guess i have to give a background as to the reason why i'm upset, right? Ok, here it is. For the past few months now, the bff & i have been looking together for jobs overseas, because, let's face it, the pay is higher (yeah, i know what you're thinking, i'm in it for the money!). so we've decided on a south east asian country because it's nearer and easier to go & apply to as opposed to countries in Europe os North America. We got short listed & interviewed by an agency and informed that we have to wait a month to see if we got the job. Well, last week I texted bff and asked her what she's been up to and she replied, that she was accepted and is now arranging to get all the necesssary docs to go to Canada.

Okaaaay... i thought i must have read the text wrong because i just got up from a nap, so i read it again. No change, it does say what i first thought it said.

So i guess I'm feeling a lil' bit dejected. It's not the first time ive been left hanging in the air like this. But this is kinda major, you know? And a little bit sudden. Maybe if she told me ahead of time that she's no longer interested in the SG job and that she would like to just pursue this one, then i guess part of me would have been ok with it. I mean, at least I get a warning. Don't close friends deserve at least that?

The thing with friendship is, you go through ups and downs together, you support and encourage each other thru every problems that life throws at you, no matter how big or little it is. And you learn to grow and forgive each other. Because having a friend who knows you, who accepts you for who and what you are, I think it's priceless. And I really don't want to lose any of them at this stage in my life. I once read somewhere that you only get to know at least 3 or 4 people in your life that will really be your close friends, and i'm counting her as 1 of those 4 people.

It will take time, I guess, for me to actually just forget about this. Who knows? Maybe the situation might still change. But I'm still hoping for the best for her in everything she does, I think that's the best thing that a friend can ever do.

chuck season 2!

i just saw the season 2 trailer for chuck on youtube. its going to be a fantastic one! can't wait for it, the 1st season was way too short... plus zachary levi is too cute as the geeky but hot chuck!

another quote...

"Act as if what you do makes a difference.

It does"

- William James

My name is Kim Samsoon/Ako si Kim Samsoon (Philippine version)

Ok, so i've been a fan of the Korean drama with the same title, and I was surprised/skeptical to hear that GMA 7 was going to do a Philippine version. I told myself that I was going to see if this version may do the original one justice. Several weeks into watching the Fil-version, I have to say I'm kinda disappointed. Regine Velasquez (otherwise known as

Asia's songbird) is ok as Samsoon, she nails the way the original Samsoon acts (blunt,boisterous), although her character is waaaay much bigger than Korean actress' Kim Sun Ah's was in the Kdrama (is it just me or does her boobs look lopsided sometimes? =) and dude, the size of her butt kinda rivals jlo's... or even mine!). Mark Anthony Fernandez pales in comparison to Hyun Bin. He doesnt have the same charisma as the original male lead. Also, they made Dr. Henry Kim and Hee-Jin's character (or Hanna in the Fil version) so bad, I tend to switch channels when their scenes are being shown.

I think the essence of the Kdrama was you just don't tend to fall in love with leads but also the second leads as well. You kinda understand Hee-Jin's/Hanna's reason for going abroad was because she didn't want her bf worrying about her, and you applaud Dr. Henry's silent encouragement of her even though he's already in love with Hanna's character. With the Fil version, you want to puke at the seemingly innate nastiness that is Hanna's character. I think the only consolation that the Fil version has is veteran stage thespian Eugene Domingo's acting as Chef Dina. I've become a fan of her's from her other films but to watch her every night, 5x a week is something else. She's the gem in an otherwise blah remake. Credits also go to Jenica Garcia who play's Samsoon's younger sis Eliza. She has the comedic timing right, must be in the genes, what with both actors for parents, right?

Anyway, there are several more weeks, maybe even months to go, before the series ends. I hope they get to redeem themselves by making it even funnier than the original one, then, maybe I'll call myself a fan.

cake wrecks!

just happened to pass by this blog, http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com, from the blogs of worth on the blogger dashboard. it's a really fun and interesting site. visit it if you have the time. i guarantee you'll have a great time. i know i did while looking at the cakes and the captions by the author. (simply funny!)

rant!!!

today i met one of the biggest A*@holes ever! i just had a really tiring, really BAD day! i want to go on and rant until i run out of things to say but i'm just beat. maybe i'll update again tomorrow, or maybe not, not if my sibs have anything to say about it. am almost too tired to even type. will go ahead and sleep now, maybe i'll have a nice dream for a change. (and maybe, just maybe, Wu Chun will come visit me in my dreams! ***wink wink***)

" imagination is more important than knowledge"
- Albert Einstein

just a quote...

"Never fear the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so..."

- Belva Davis

from http://www.inspirational-quotations.com/

fan girlishness!

ok, so i told myself i will just blog about things that i want to rant or rave about. you know? i told myself, "girl, you have to learn how ...to...restrain (inhale)...control (exhale)...yourself...do...NOT...GIVE...UP...to your FAN GIRL...side!!!"

well...this is me losing the battle! =) i can't help it! i mean, just look at him! aww, chun! is the cake for me? ***sighing off to daydream land...***

fated to love you

i just finished watching the final episode for fated to love you, and well... ok i'm a convert! but this doesnt mean that iswak and tka are not my fave drama's anymore! i just like ftly that's all!

random things (bucket list)

here's a list of things i want to do before i reach 30, nope, scratch that, 35! (only 5 years to go!)

-watch a movie alone (done! harry potter 5 & 7 part 1)
-learn how to swim and how to drive and how to ride a bike (dude, i had a very "sheltered" childhood, ok?)

-learn how to play the guitar

-learn how to speak another language (i'm thinking Korean...)
-have a savings account with more than P100,000 in it
-travel to other countries for vacations (done,so far Malaysia & Indonesia)
-have my own house &
-have my own car (they go hand in hand, you know? =))
-buy jewelry (check! 1 18k white gold ring,up next diamond stud earrings)
-LOSE WEIGHT & EXERCISE (losing weight, done, exercising? nope!)
-meet any of the ff people: Wentworth Miller, Carmine Giovinazzo (from CSI NY), Daniel Henney or Wu Chun, let's add Lee Dong Wook on this list, shall we? =) (wishful thinking? i know! but hey, it could happen!)
-join an international organization like habitat for humanity or green peace

-maybe forgive & forget about the past? (will try, but it's not that easy)

-get another job that pays higher so i can get my dad to stop working and enjoy life :)


that's it for now, will think of other random things in the next few days ( i mean years!)

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

Kelly Clarkson Breakaway lyrics

[Verse 1]Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down,

I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy,

I would pray

Trying hard to reach out,

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here,

But something felt so wrong here

So I'd pray I could breakaway

[Chorus]I spread my wings and I learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

[Verse 2]Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on an airplane, far away

(I will pray)And breakaway

[Chorus]I spread my wings and I learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

[Bridge]Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging with revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

[Last Chorus]I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

credits to www.lyricsmode.com

this song represents what i want to do with my life and how i'm currently living it. i just want to breakaway from it all! the restrictions that inhibit me from becoming who i want to be and how i want to live my life. sometimes i think i'm being too selfish, but when i think of how little i've been able to do in the 27 years of my life, i'm slowly but surely beginning to realize that i haven't really done much to make myself happy. it's time for a change, it's time for me to maybe stop worrying too much about how others will say or feel and start thinking about ME. only then, i think, will i be really happy. i don't want it to be 10 or 20 years from now and i look back and be bitter about the could have or should have, the if only's. given the chance, the opportunity, i want to change, i will change! just you wait & see!!

fated to love you...i finally see the light!

lately, i've been watching this taiwan drama, "fated to love you". i admit my curiosity was piqued when i learned that they surpassed "it started with a kiss 2 (tka)" in the ratings. but being an iswak and tka fanatic, i held on to my belief that nothing can be better than my 2 favorite twdrama. when time finally came and i found myself with nothing to do, i logged on to mysoju and watched episode1, then i found myself watching episode 2, then 3,4,5,6...and now? dang! i'm hooked! everything that i loved in iswak 1&2 are here, and then some...i found myself laughing hilariously at some of the scenes, then frowning the next because of the female lead. she has got to be, to borrow a phrase, the biggest "doormat" i've ever encountered in any of the many dramas that i've watched. seriously... i think that if she was told to jump naked from a bridge she would do it, all to please the people around her. then there's the drama. if you were able to watch episode 12 and say that you weren't crying, then you have a heart of stone! i was crying buckets of tears with my nose running and trying hard not to sniff and bawl out loud in case my youngest sister wakes up from her afternoon siesta and see me crying. she's probably think i'm crazy! heck, i'd think i'm crazy!

right now, i'm waiting for episode 21 to load, i can't wait! this is a must see drama for all twdrama lover's out there! whether or not you're a fan of the leads, you should at least give it a try!

credits to wiki.d-addicts.com for the pic

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my mind is absolutely blank! i don't know what to write or blog or even rant about! NOT GOOD!!!! this is not good at all....

They Kiss Again (ISWAK2)

Synopsis

It Started With a Kiss ended with odd couple Zhi Shu (Joe Cheng) and Xiang Qin (Ariel Lin) getting married in characteristically comical fashion, and the sequel picks up the story right away with their honeymoon and married life. Xiang Qin is as ham-fisted as ever, creating many funny situations as she learns the ropes of being a wife and tries hard to become a good nurse and work alongside her genius husband. Aspiring doctor Zhi Shu meets some obstacles at school when he encounters both academic and romantic rivals who are determined to over-rule him. The pressure of balancing marriage, work, and school often leads to mistakes and misunderstandings, and Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin soon learn that marrying young isn't all it's cracked up to be. [1]
As Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin struggle with their professional ambitions, they also struggle with their personal relationship. Many times, Zhi Shu's coldness and harshness drives Xiang Qin to tears and she tries to run away. Zhi Shu himself tries to push Xiang Qin to higher ambition and making a life for herself. Zhi Shu soon learns to love Xiang Qin and forgive her bumbling ways, and Xiang Qin tries harder to become a better wife and nurse for her husband.
Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin are not the only ones having problems with their relationship. Xiang Qin's childhood friend Ah Jin (Jiro Wang) deals with the affections of an English exchange student who latches onto him against his will. Xiang Qin's friend, Chun Mei (Petty Yang), gets pregnant by her boyfriend, Ah Bu (Arron Yan), but his wealthy, highbrow mother is desperate to keep them apart. Zhi Shu's younger brother Yu Shu (Zhang Bo Han) deals with his own first love.

My Thoughts

When I 1st heard that there will be a sequel to the much loved ISWAK, i was happy. I was eagerly awaiting for this drama to be aired on Philippine TV since the 1st one was so good. I feel in love with all the characters on the 1st series, what will all the crazy family members and even crazier friends. But what really got me was how determined XQ was to win over the cold- hearted ZS. I was so into finding out what happened after they got married that I was pestering my trusty neighborhood DVD seller into finding me a complete copy, but it took a while longer that I liked, so my next step? Mysoju! Lord, whoever made that website & the subbers who made it possible for non-Mandarin speaking people to understand what the characters were saying, THANK YOU! You basically made waiting for the Tagalog- dubbed version infinitely more bearable for me =)... Anyway, here are some of my favorite scenes and lines from the whole series (how do you say KILIG in different languages? because that's how I felt after watching this series, that as well as joy, laughter & sadness too). I can't just choose like 5 favorite scenes/lines, there was just too much of them!



-episode 1 (hello? that honeymoon? that was a really loooong love scene, around 10 mins, I think, if you watch the uncut version)

-episode 3 after ZS presentation and XQ was looking for him, then Chuan Jin tried to harrass her. there was a part where CJ was holding XQ hands & was apologizing to her, the look on ZS face was priceless, he just started going off on Cj about how he'll still be #2! QJ was like, hello? why are you still pushing his buttons like that when everythings fine already? =)

-episode 9 when XQ get's drunk and loses her shoe, ZS told her to sit on his lap then puts her shoes on for her

-episode 11 in it's entirety. this one has it all, esp the drama part. you can really feel XQ unhappiness when she was crying at the door of Yu Shu's bedroom. then came the scene at the ferris wheel with the cake, then the piggyback scene! woohoo!!!! cute!

-episode 12 when ZS told XQ she can practice her injection skills on him, later on telling her that she did fine and that it didn't hurt at all. then in the next scene when he was eating with CJ and CJ accidentally hits him in the arm w/ a folder, we find out that it actually hurt a lot!

-episode 14 when that family finds out that ZS will be assigned to Matsu for his military training,

XQ said that "the love she had for ZS was a million times more than what he's shown for her". then when ZS was talking to XQ dad, he said that XQ doesn't seem to realize "how much he is in love with her".

-episode 15 XQ was saying goodbye to ZS & asked for a goodbye kiss in the hospital corridor,

the scene at the airport lounge at Matsu when XQ was on her way home & ZS pinches her face & then kisses her in full view of every person there, & tells her to get her nursing license quickly, that was really cute.

-then when ZS got back for a visit and XQ comes running to him and jumps into his arms and rains kisses on his face and ZS just smiles then asks her how long is she gonna hug him

episode 18 on what was supposed to be their date on XQ birthday, she was waiting for ZS at the train station, when ZS saw her with blood on her face & clothes, he was so worried that she might be hurt. than he later showed her his new office with all the things that XQ has given him, including the miniature house!

-episode 20 when ZS was looking for XQ after finding her note, the look on his face was pure, unadulterated panic at the thought that XQ really left him. then the scene at their old highschool & at the tunnel, you can honestly feel his frustration at not finding her there.

-scene at ZS office in the hospital

ZS to XQ: "where can i find someone as suitable for me as you? like now, to have the perfect embrace...& the you that completes me..."

"please don't ever think of leaving me again, pls. don't leave me behind. i will be scared, i am scared of the days without you..." (melting to a puddle a I watch this scene...LOL)

-the scene in their bedroom where ZS was telling XQ that he loves her

semi- depressed birthday mode

My birthday is just around the corner, and for the 3rd straight year, I'm semi- depressed. it all started when my siblings & i had to move out of the house we grew up in because of family problems. We were away for about a year and I had to celebrate my birthday in a place that I wasn't really that familiar with. Don't get me wrong, we stayed with my uncle's house for awhile, & they were great for putting up with us, but it wasn't the same as spending it at home, you know? Couple that with the fact that at that time, I really wasn't that happy with my job so I was always absent, so come payday, (which, by the way, comes a day before my birthday), my salary wasn't that much. It's my fault I know, but somehow, 3 years later, I still feel the same.

I somehow can't shake the feeling that 3 years from now, or heaven forbid, 10 years from now, I'd still be feeling the same way. Maybe it has something to do with my discontent over my current situation. True, my sibs & I are now back home, but I'm still a bum since quitting my job a few months back, hence the financial problem. Then there's the problem with my lovelife, or lack thereof. I haven't been out on a date in years, and this has led me to believe that there is something wrong with me, personality- wise (although I really don't think so, with me, what you see is pretty much what you get). I also have that teeny problem about my family (ok, so it's not teeny, it's a lot big, like THIS BIG). I really don't have the strength to go on about that now, not when I'm already like this, maybe in the future I'll write about it, but for the meantime, let me go on & be depressed for a little while more...

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah

credits to www.lyrics.com

why brown girl diaries?

why? i was kinda asking myself the same thing last night before i actually decided to sit in front of the pc and actually make this blog. i was thinking of something clever or funny to name it and i came up with nothing (i'm obviously not the imaginative type).
then, while watching the olympic games on tv, i chanced upon the qualifying round of the 200m men's butterfly swimming event, or whatever it is that they call it, and a Filipino swimmer by the name of JB Walsh came in 1st. the commentator explained that he grew up in Virginia, USA, but chose to compete under the Philippine team. he wasn't able to qualify for the main event, but it got me thinking, here's a guy whose obviously half American and grew up in the States but still decided to represent the Philippines for all the world to see.
i want the same thing to be obvious to people when they read and see my blog. i'm Filipino, and proud of it. i may have a mostly western view on some things, and i totally grew up with all the modern amenities that people are so used to, but everything in me is pure Pinoy. i'm proud of where i came from, proud of the skin color that most people associate with the color of mud, but hey! this is me, you either love me or hate me, but i'm not going to change who i am just to please others.