Friday, April 24, 2009

by Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it dont matter though
'Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do, you're not easy to find

Is it possible, Mr Loveable is already in my life?
Right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Shawn's leaving!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

shawn, why are you leaving us?! okay, fine, we all know it's so you can continue your studies, but do you really have to resign?! why? why ha?
anyway, as promised, here are the pictures showing just how crazy you are. we're all gonna miss your wackiness and also all the advice you give. thanks for all the help, mr. spikey!

shawn, the water boy

with claire's bag...

with my bag...

and with rovie's bag!

wishing you all the luck!
take care of rae ha?
we're all happy for you guys!

crazier by taylor swift

so i was watching hannah montana the movie (i know, for kids only, but i like the show) and midway thru it taylor swift sang this song called crazier. i liked the song, although i've never been much of a fan of hers, but the song really just... beckons, you know? (i can't find another word to describe it, sorry!) so here it is, listen to the song if you can find it and then read thru the lyrics, then you'll know what i mean by it beckoning...hahaha!
by Taylor Swift
I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
'Til you open the door
and there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything.
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
I've watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me beleive
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier Ohh
Baby, you showed me what livin is for
I don't wanna hide hide anymore
Ohh Ohh
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier

it's my sis yhelly's b-day!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

well, almost. it's actually on april 11, but what the heck!
here's one for you kid!



so since i had nobody to go to the movies with, i decided to watch it online. i know i said the quality was bad most of the time, but when i searched for "fast & furious" copies, lo & behold! i actually got a pretty good & clear copy of the movie! which is great for me, considering i had nothing at all to do the entire freakin' day!
the movie was pretty damn good, and it satisfied fans like me who were left wanting more after the 1st one ended five years ago. it had almost everything, bad ass cars, bad ass hot tempered, no, just plain hot guys! good looking girls (yawn), car chases and explosions! yep, I'm pretty satisfied with it. the ending did leave me thinking there may be a part 5 coming, but i hope it doesn't take another 5 years to make!
i also watched "eagle eye" with shia lebeouf and michelle monaghan. I've been wanting to watch it since it was shown (i think i was still back home then) because the plot left me asking who the heck was controlling them and so i wanted to know more. and boy, did i get more! the whole thing was pretty futuristic, and shows what could happen if there were things like ARIA (you have to watch the movie to get what I'm talking about, seriously!) running things for the government and how it affects the lives of people whose privacy are being invaded without them even knowing it.
all in all, a pretty satisfying day, and i didn't really have to shell out big bucks for it!

so early

i cannot believe i'm blogging so early in the freakin' morning. i'm waiting for my hair to dry out so i guess that's one explanation. this blog entry is going to be one worthless, pointless piece of crap (so pointless i might consider taking it off later...).

so while i'm drying my hair, i'm thinking of various ways to spend my day. i'm thinking maybe go watch a movie? i've been dying to see fast & furious and x-men origins: wolverine. the first one is already showing, the second one will be after about a couple more weeks.

claire promised me we'd watch the fast & furious movie together but she backed out the last minute, boo-hoo for claire! =) so i'm now looking for somebody else to be my movie date, any takers? man, i wish my sis was here, then i wouldn't be so worried about missing a movie! if worse comes to worse, i'd probably watch it online, where the quality is so bad, you just want to weep!

oh, well, life sucks!
my hair's dry now,
off to meet the dragon! =)

horoscope! 03-04-2009

Friday, April 3, 2009

and today's horoscope reads...

The Bottom Line
When you aim at your romantic target today, you need to switch off your emotions.

In Detail
When you aim at your romantic target today, you need to switch off your emotions. Your doubt and fear -- even your confidence -- must be pushed aside, or else you may miss your mark. Approach everything with an analytical eye today and there will be no doubts you can't explain away. Nothing in life is one hundred percent certain, but if you put your brain to work now, you guess outcomes well enough. Passion isn't going to be as powerful as intellect, at least not for a while.

i have two words to say...

sex & the city movie

Thursday, April 2, 2009

i finally watched the sex & the city movie...i know, i know, it's been months since it was shown, but i've never really been a fan of the show. i've watched it several times but didn't really catch the "fever" as it is known amongst fans of the show.
i liked it, as simple as that. it was a tad too long, but every part of the movie was so engrossing, not to mention all that lovely clothes and shoes that they keep showing. i totally agreed with what carrie said when she saw that apartment, i would want to say it like that too! ("hello, my name is dianne, and i freakin' live here!"). i fell in love with the wedding gowns that carrie was trying on for the vogue photo shoot, especially the 1st one by vera wang. if i were to get married, it would be my dream to wear a gown either by vera wang or monique lhuillier! i also loved the fact that it shows friendship in all its levels, even the bad times, and how they worked thru all their problems together.
another part i loved was when carrie was reading a book of love letters, one in particular caught my attention, the letter by ludwig van beethhoven to his "eternally beloved". in an age where emails and sms' are the rage, it's an often rare treat to get a letter, no, a love letter, from a special person. (but what really got me was the first line "my angel, my all, my very self" as well as the last lines "ever yours, ever mine, ever ours")
and so, since i'm nosy and eternally romantic, i googled the love letter from the great pianist, who i only knew from music classes before. here is the love letter, in full, not just the one they showed in the movie.

Beethoven's Love Letter
July 6th,
in the morning
My angel, my all, my very self. - Only a few words today, and, what is more, written in pencil (and with your pencil)-I shan't be certain of my rooms here until tomorrow; what an unnecessary waste of time is all this--Why this profound sorrow, when necessity speaks--can our love endure without sacrifices, without our demanding everything from one another, can you alter the fact that you are not wholly mine, that I am not wholly yours?--
Dear God, look at Nature in all her beauty and set your heart at rest about what must be--Love demands all, and rightly so, and thus it is for me with you, for you with me-- but you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were completely united, you would fee this painful necessity just as little as I do--
My journey was dreadful and I did not arrive here until yesterday at four o'clock in the morning. As there were few horses the mail coach chose another route, but what a dreadful road it was; at the last state but one I was warned not to travel by night; attempts were made to frighten me about a forest, but all this only spurred me on to proceed--and it was wrong of me to do so.. The coach broke down, of course, owing to the dreadful road which had not been made up and was nothing but a country track. If we hadn't had those two postillions I should have been left stranded on the way--On the other ordinary road Esterhazy with eight horses met with the same fate as I did with four--Yet I felt to a certain extent that pleasure I always feel when I have overcome some difficulty successfully--
Well, let me turn quickly from outer to inner experiences. No doubt we shall meet soon; and today also time fails me to tell you of the thoughts which during these last few days I have been revolving about my life--If our hearts were always closely united, I would certainly entertain no such thoughts. My hear overflows with a longing to tell you so many things--Oh--there are moments when I find that speech is quite inadequate--Be cheerful-- and be for ever my faithful, my only sweetheart, my all, as I am yours. The gods must send us everything else, whatever must and shall be our fate--
Your faithful Ludwig
Monday evening,
July 6th
You are suffering, you, my most precious one--I have noticed the very moment that letters have to be handed in very early, on Monday--or on Thursday--the only days when the mail coach goes from here to Karlsbad.--You are suffering--Oh, where I am, you are with me--I will see to it that you and I, that I can live with you. What a life!!!! as it is now!!!! without you--pursued by the kindness of people here and there, a kindness that I think-that I wish to deserve just as little as I deserve it--man's homage to man--that pains me--and when I consider myself in the setting of the universe, what I am and what is the man--whom one calls the greatest of me--and yet--on the other hand therein lies the divine element in man--I weep when I think that probably you will not receive the first news of me until Saturday--However much you love me--good night--Since I am taking the baths I must get off to sleep--Dear God--so near! so far! Is not our love truly founded in heaven--and, what is more, as strongly cemented as the firmament of Heaven
Good morning,
on July 7th
Even when I am in bed my thoughts rush to you, my eternally beloved, now and then joyfully, then again sadly, waiting to know whether Fate will hear our prayer--To face life I must live altogether with you or never see you. Yes, I am resolved to be a wanderer abroad until I can fly to your arms and say that I have found my true home with you and enfolded in your arms can let my soul be wafted to the realm on blessed spirits--alas, unfortunately it must be so--You will become composed, the more so as you know that I am faithful to you; no other woman can ever possess my heart--never--never--Oh God, why must one be separated from her who is so dear. Yet my life in V[ienna] at present is a miserable life--Your love has made me both the happiest and the unhappiest of mortals--At my age I now need stability and regularity in my life--can this coexist with our relationship?--Angel, I have just heard that the post goes every day--and therefore I must close, so that you may receive the letter immediately--Be calm; for only by calmly considering our lives can we achieve our purpose to live together--Be calm--love me--Today--yesterday--what tearful longing for you--for you--you--my life--my all--all good wishes to you--Oh, do continue to love me--never misjudge your lover's most faithful heart.
ever yours
ever mine
ever ours


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

for the past few days i've had nothing to blog about, it's like there's this huge piece of nothingness just stuck in my head and won't go away. it gets so bad that even at work i just kinda blanked out on things (and that's really, really bad)

i think it's just stress really. i have to find a way to release all the negative emotions just warring inside me. but it's hard when i have to constantly face different problems every single day that comes my way.

oh well, maybe i'll get a massage. at least for an hour i'll be totally dead to everything that the world gives me. hopefully, i can get one tomorrow (although that's highly unlikely! but whatever! i can still dream)