i can't make you love me

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Turn down the lights,
turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize
- dont patronize me
cause I cant make you love me
if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark,
in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me,
if you dont
Ill close my eyes,
then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come
and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
cause I cant make you love me
if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark,
in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont,
no you wont cause
I cant make you love me,
if you dont
this song is aiza seguerra's version, but originally done by bonnie rait. i stumbled upon it via the asianfanatics news portal and followed the link to asian review 2.0. i'm not really surprised at aiza seguerra's voice, i mean, i've been listening to her since she came up with her 1st album years ago. it's just so incredibly soothing, like listening to water gently flowing down a brook. (did i really just go poetic there?) but this song, man, i could just visualize how people (girls) with broken hearts are listening to it while looking out the window into the night sky while it's raining. it makes you want to, well, for lack of better terms to use, it makes you want to emote. it makes you want to remember the feelings and memories that you try so hard to suppress deep inside.
so, go ahead and emote. don't worry, nobody's looking.
Listen to Aiza Seguerra's song here: http://asianreview2.blogspot.com/

wendy valdez on The Buzz (092108)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

wondering why the font color is freakin' bloody red? (doesn't really go with the page, i know!) read on and find out, coz' i'm about to rant some more...

did anybody else (aside from me that is) had the misfortune to watch wendy valdez on the buzz last sunday? she was being interviewed by boy abunda regarding the rumor that she had the temerity to answer back AND walk out on edu manzano on a taping for GKNB.

that really wasn't the reason why i'm ranting. she could be interviewed every day of the freakin' week and i wouldn't care less about it. but the minute she started sniffling, like she's going to cry any minute now but just barely holding it back? that's what got to me. i was actually waiting for her to cry! but guess what? NO TEARS! just sniffles! girl, i'm telling you, if you wanted to have the entire country believe in you when you say you're just misunderstood, make sure that there are freakin' TEARS RUNNING DOWN YOUR FACE!!! i'm not exactly asking for gut wrenching sobs like you just lost your dog (like i did) or something, maybe a tear or two would have done it. but nothing! nada! not one damn tear out of the corner of her eye!

maybe she should just stick to reality shows like PBB, she was so good at being the queen of b!$*%ness there, or maybe take more acting lessons? like maybe for a month? no, wait, a year maybe? yeah, i think a year would do it...by then when you try to cry on TV, maybe even i would buy into the act!

ok...rant over. (breathes deeply, then exhale)

reproductive health bill

Monday, September 22, 2008

to all the stupid people (you know who you are and you know where you're from!) who have been trying to block the reproductive health bill from becoming a law, you have no idea what you're talking about! you don't know what it's like for all the children in this country who are starving because their parents don't have enough money to support them! you are not the one feeding them! you are not the one supporting them! you are not the one struggling to work hard to get enough money to pay the bills! in short, shut the heck up!
i've had enough of all the whining that the catholic church is doing regarding this matter. isn't there supposed to be a separation of the church and the state? if so, then why does it have to matter what they say when the bill is for the good of all women nationwide? why is it so hard for them to understand that we, as women, have the right to choose for ourselves? it's our body and we know what's right for it. and what will it take for them to know that we are not violating anything that God has told us to do? i mean, that's what free will is for, right? we know what's right and what's wrong. we are not stupid! oh, and church? stop waving your power around to all the people who support this bill by telling them that you will not support them in the coming elections and that you won't let them attend mass. shame on you!
i could go on and on about this topic, but we'll see how this issue pans out...

the thing with friendship is...

Monday, September 15, 2008

So. I had a pretty rough weekend, to say the least. I just found out that a friend of mine, who I now consider my bff(!), is now considering moving and working somewhere else, as in far somewhere else. I guess i have to give a background as to the reason why i'm upset, right? Ok, here it is. For the past few months now, the bff & i have been looking together for jobs overseas, because, let's face it, the pay is higher (yeah, i know what you're thinking, i'm in it for the money!). so we've decided on a south east asian country because it's nearer and easier to go & apply to as opposed to countries in Europe os North America. We got short listed & interviewed by an agency and informed that we have to wait a month to see if we got the job. Well, last week I texted bff and asked her what she's been up to and she replied, that she was accepted and is now arranging to get all the necesssary docs to go to Canada.
Okaaaay... i thought i must have read the text wrong because i just got up from a nap, so i read it again. No change, it does say what i first thought it said.
So i guess I'm feeling a lil' bit dejected. It's not the first time ive been left hanging in the air like this. But this is kinda major, you know? And a little bit sudden. Maybe if she told me ahead of time that she's no longer interested in the SG job and that she would like to just pursue this one, then i guess part of me would have been ok with it. I mean, at least I get a warning. Don't close friends deserve at least that?
The thing with friendship is, you go through ups and downs together, you support and encourage each other thru every problems that life throws at you, no matter how big or little it is. And you learn to grow and forgive each other. Because having a friend who knows you, who accepts you for who and what you are, I think it's priceless. And I really don't want to lose any of them at this stage in my life. I once read somewhere that you only get to know at least 3 or 4 people in your life that will really be your close friends, and i'm counting her as 1 of those 4 people.
It will take time, I guess, for me to actually just forget about this. Who knows? Maybe the situation might still change. But I'm still hoping for the best for her in everything she does, I think that's the best thing that a friend can ever do.

chuck season 2!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

i just saw the season 2 trailer for chuck on youtube. its going to be a fantastic one! can't wait for it, the 1st season was way too short... plus zachary levi is too cute as the geeky but hot chuck!

another quote...

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

"Act as if what you do makes a difference.
It does"
- William James

My name is Kim Samsoon/Ako si Kim Samsoon (Philippine version)

Ok, so i've been a fan of the Korean drama with the same title, and I was surprised/skeptical to hear that GMA 7 was going to do a Philippine version. I told myself that I was going to see if this version may do the original one justice. Several weeks into watching the Fil-version, I have to say I'm kinda disappointed. Regine Velasquez (otherwise known as
Asia's songbird) is ok as Samsoon, she nails the way the original Samsoon acts (blunt,boisterous), although her character is waaaay much bigger than Korean actress' Kim Sun Ah's was in the Kdrama (is it just me or does her boobs look lopsided sometimes? =) and dude, the size of her butt kinda rivals jlo's... or even mine!). Mark Anthony Fernandez pales in comparison to Hyun Bin. He doesnt have the same charisma as the original male lead. Also, they made Dr. Henry Kim and Hee-Jin's character (or Hanna in the Fil version) so bad, I tend to switch channels when their scenes are being shown.
I think the essence of the Kdrama was you just don't tend to fall in love with leads but also the second leads as well. You kinda understand Hee-Jin's/Hanna's reason for going abroad was because she didn't want her bf worrying about her, and you applaud Dr. Henry's silent encouragement of her even though he's already in love with Hanna's character. With the Fil version, you want to puke at the seemingly innate nastiness that is Hanna's character. I think the only consolation that the Fil version has is veteran stage thespian Eugene Domingo's acting as Chef Dina. I've become a fan of her's from her other films but to watch her every night, 5x a week is something else. She's the gem in an otherwise blah remake. Credits also go to Jenica Garcia who play's Samsoon's younger sis Eliza. She has the comedic timing right, must be in the genes, what with both actors for parents, right?

Anyway, there are several more weeks, maybe even months to go, before the series ends. I hope they get to redeem themselves by making it even funnier than the original one, then, maybe I'll call myself a fan.

cake wrecks!

Monday, September 8, 2008

just happened to pass by this blog, http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com, from the blogs of worth on the blogger dashboard. it's a really fun and interesting site. visit it if you have the time. i guarantee you'll have a great time. i know i did while looking at the cakes and the captions by the author. (simply funny!)


Saturday, September 6, 2008

today i met one of the biggest A*@holes ever! i just had a really tiring, really BAD day! i want to go on and rant until i run out of things to say but i'm just beat. maybe i'll update again tomorrow, or maybe not, not if my sibs have anything to say about it. am almost too tired to even type. will go ahead and sleep now, maybe i'll have a nice dream for a change. (and maybe, just maybe, Wu Chun will come visit me in my dreams! ***wink wink***)

" imagination is more important than knowledge"
- Albert Einstein

just a quote...

"Never fear the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so..."

- Belva Davis

from http://www.inspirational-quotations.com/

fan girlishness!

Friday, September 5, 2008

ok, so i told myself i will just blog about things that i want to rant or rave about. you know? i told myself, "girl, you have to learn how ...to...restrain (inhale)...control (exhale)...yourself...do...NOT...GIVE...UP...to your FAN GIRL...side!!!"
well...this is me losing the battle! =) i can't help it! i mean, just look at him! aww, chun! is the cake for me? ***sighing off to daydream land...***

fated to love you

i just finished watching the final episode for fated to love you, and well... ok i'm a convert! but this doesnt mean that iswak and tka are not my fave drama's anymore! i just like ftly that's all!

random things (bucket list)

here's a list of things i want to do before i reach 30, nope, scratch that, 35! (only 5 years to go!)

-watch a movie alone (done! harry potter 5 & 7 part 1)
-learn how to swim and how to drive and how to ride a bike (dude, i had a very "sheltered" childhood, ok?)

-learn how to play the guitar
-learn how to speak another language (i'm thinking Korean...)
-have a savings account with more than P100,000 in it
-travel to other countries for vacations (done,so far Malaysia & Indonesia)
-have my own house &
-have my own car (they go hand in hand, you know? =))
-buy jewelry (check! 1 18k white gold ring,up next diamond stud earrings)
-LOSE WEIGHT & EXERCISE (losing weight, done, exercising? nope!)
-meet any of the ff people: Wentworth Miller, Carmine Giovinazzo (from CSI NY), Daniel Henney or Wu Chun, let's add Lee Dong Wook on this list, shall we? =) (wishful thinking? i know! but hey, it could happen!)
-join an international organization like habitat for humanity or green peace
-maybe forgive & forget about the past? (will try, but it's not that easy)
-get another job that pays higher so i can get my dad to stop working and enjoy life :)

that's it for now, will think of other random things in the next few days ( i mean years!)

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

Kelly Clarkson Breakaway lyrics

[Verse 1]Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out,
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray I could breakaway
[Chorus]I spread my wings and I learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
[Verse 2]Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on an airplane, far away
(I will pray)And breakaway
[Chorus]I spread my wings and I learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
[Bridge]Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
[Last Chorus]I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
this song represents what i want to do with my life and how i'm currently living it. i just want to breakaway from it all! the restrictions that inhibit me from becoming who i want to be and how i want to live my life. sometimes i think i'm being too selfish, but when i think of how little i've been able to do in the 27 years of my life, i'm slowly but surely beginning to realize that i haven't really done much to make myself happy. it's time for a change, it's time for me to maybe stop worrying too much about how others will say or feel and start thinking about ME. only then, i think, will i be really happy. i don't want it to be 10 or 20 years from now and i look back and be bitter about the could have or should have, the if only's. given the chance, the opportunity, i want to change, i will change! just you wait & see!!

fated to love you...i finally see the light!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

lately, i've been watching this taiwan drama, "fated to love you". i admit my curiosity was piqued when i learned that they surpassed "it started with a kiss 2 (tka)" in the ratings. but being an iswak and tka fanatic, i held on to my belief that nothing can be better than my 2 favorite twdrama. when time finally came and i found myself with nothing to do, i logged on to mysoju and watched episode1, then i found myself watching episode 2, then 3,4,5,6...and now? dang! i'm hooked! everything that i loved in iswak 1&2 are here, and then some...i found myself laughing hilariously at some of the scenes, then frowning the next because of the female lead. she has got to be, to borrow a phrase, the biggest "doormat" i've ever encountered in any of the many dramas that i've watched. seriously... i think that if she was told to jump naked from a bridge she would do it, all to please the people around her. then there's the drama. if you were able to watch episode 12 and say that you weren't crying, then you have a heart of stone! i was crying buckets of tears with my nose running and trying hard not to sniff and bawl out loud in case my youngest sister wakes up from her afternoon siesta and see me crying. she's probably think i'm crazy! heck, i'd think i'm crazy!
right now, i'm waiting for episode 21 to load, i can't wait! this is a must see drama for all twdrama lover's out there! whether or not you're a fan of the leads, you should at least give it a try!
credits to wiki.d-addicts.com for the pic